time stops time travels
the ship stops the mind runs
left to right and front to back
confusion is only an illusion
the minds games trick us into feeling the horrible sides that shouldn’t exist.
I want to dance in the rain and play in the sand. I want to travel and set up a life for us, slowly and surely making sure we take this in steps. I’m trying to figure out how to make this situation that im stuck in feel like its not going to just blow up in my face and just be the last little thing that pushes me over the edge, im so close theres not much that is keeping me with my chin above water during this tidal storm of shit that has just hit the fan blade to my life. I really don’t want to lose this, the connection. I need to start looking at myself and asking myself some questions. I need to do this more often I need to make time to sit down and write to myself on a daily basis, I also need to get back into meditating, its been to long sense I have done that.
I want to make this time im here seem valuable and worth while to let her know that living together wont be so hard. and that things will work out and be okay. ^_^
I have this problem. Trying to give to much attention maybe for my own needs and problems. I feel like being close and touching is feeling everything the explosions of light and blooms of light that happen in my mind my hearth in every single cell thats in my body I just want to make her happy with it and send it all her way.
But right now I’m fighting with myself to much to let this happen. I need to just relax calm my mind and be normal for once just act like yourself and stop trying to “fix” things before they even break. Take the steps forward that are right and necessarily the only right ones you should be looking at right now.