Captured All Alone

time like this when i feel so alone, 

times when even the word lonely seems less alone than me

why cant you be here, why cant you reconize that i could use you tonight

use to hear your voice, just to calm my mind

help me reach a state where i could handle this 

its so difficult not seeing anyone all week

spending all this time alone

spending it all by myself

living in this town is almost putting me in a delusional space

you say you need your space and dont want to talk on the phone all the time

but i need to feel some connection 

i need you to be here for me when i need it

i need you to realize in my tone, in my voice 

feel me, feel my emptiness and how your the only one that fiills it

I miss you 

cant wait too see you

less than 24 hours

cmon brain we can do this were tough enough.

sometimes i wonder why one thing that shouldnt bother me as much as it does, knowing i get to see her this weekend should be a great thing, but knowing that she is gonna have to work late kinda pisses me off. I cant wait untill she can move up here and we can be together it seems like time is going soooooo slow toward that but once that time comes it will be nice. 

Works been shitty and to top it off the part time seasonal job that i thought i was gonna get fell through, and well heres to hoping this christmas time dont suck as much as normal. I hate this time of year.  

to cuddle you, i would kill for it.

She has such rough days she has so many problems that go on in her brain, she wonders what life would be with out any hardships with out any pain. 

Her time on his planet shes a golden child
the glow in the night sky she is a starling
wondering why life is so mild

born from the stars she lights up my life like bling

a diamond in the rough, rough textured from past pains and people miss treating.

shes my love and one that has showed me what love is, the feels that ive pondered and never let into my life before. 

now comes the rough winter, season depression is on us but through together we will be able to make it through.

how am i supposed to know whats going on if you never let me in on whats actually wrong?